I get to post so rarely anymore that I'm not quite sure what to say when I do. But I had something happen the other day that I think I need to get down ( Read more... )

A recent post on one of the communities I follow made me realise that I've been wanting to say this for quite a while. It was a bit (okay, a lot) off-topic to the actual post, so I decided it would be better put in my own journal ( Read more... )

My main focus lately has been on trying to get a job. Trying is the key word in that sentence; I've not been making much progress on even getting applications filled out online. While I've been struggling with this, two things happened. First, a good friend of mine was given a formal assessment and diagnosed with severe ADHD. Second, routemaps posted a ( Read more... )

Okay, so I feel like an idiot.

( As they say in the dialect of the small valley where I grew up, DUH )

Sorry for the unplanned hiatus from LJ. About a month ago I broke a promise to myself. I was feeling down and posted about it, and it turned ugly. So I locked it for myself only. Some stuff came up that I realised I needed to talk to mfrazercani about before I put it up for the whole internet to read. I calmed down the next day and we did resolve it, but ( Read more... )

Wow, major depression tonight. I almost don't want to post, because nothing I'm thinking is rational, true or pleasant to read, but I suppose I should have a record of how I'm feeling.

( Cut so as not to expose the unwary to the morass of rubbish that is my brain tonight )

Being a man - waking up tomorrow in the right body - is something I desperately want. Becoming a man, however - actually transitioning - is scary and I'm feeling ambivalent about it.

How do I present myself to the world, especially here in a small town, while I'm visibly trans?
How will I find a job?
What if I get too hairy for mfrazercani too deal with ( Read more... )

I've been so busy and so tired lately I've not had much room in my head for anything beyond learning my new job(s) and sleeping. I know I have thoughts running around in my head, but they're too vague to put into words very well. So no big thoughts here, just a smattering of little ones.

( This ended up longer than I thought it would be )

I don't know what's going on in my head. I've kind of taken the last couple of weeks off from thinking about or dealing with this whole trans issue. And most of the time it's been really good - we played a lot of DDO, took the dog out to the dog park and to play dates with his buddy Anna, had a lot of sex, watched some films and just generally ( Read more... )

I had the most bizarre dream last night that George Harrison came over to visit and we talked about how I don't have the slightest idea how to write a song but I do pretty good writing stories, so that's okay. And he brought me a packet of cinnamon from the '80s as a gift because for some reason "real" cinnamon wasn't available anymore. Sometimes ( Read more... )